I officially hit my bottom, at the bottom of a bowl of ice
cream. It was a "rocky road" to get that point but it was what I
needed to get sober & be free. I'll explain & introduce myself in the
My name is Tom & I'm an alcoholic & drug addict. I'm
addicted to anything that eliminates my fear & takes me out myself.
Needless to say, now I'm addicted to recovery & helping others. That's what
the 12 steps & God have granted me. Still & free, 1 day at a time.
Here's my addiction history, summed up in a couple
sentences. There was pain, misery & a ton of missed opportunities. Broken
hearts & tears were commonplace when I was around. Good times didn't exist
& gut- wrenching detoxes were routine. That was the road I needed to travel
to have my sobriety & I'm grateful for every step.
If you can relate to anything I just wrote, it might be time
to make a decision, but now to the ice cream story. I look back on it &
realize God works in mysterious ways. My household was financially broke &
spiritually & mentally broken, but I continued in my addiction anyway. With
2 young children in the house, my beautiful woman was barely holding it
together. She's an angel for sticking around despite the torture I put her
through. I was a terrorist to her & my children.
Food was scarce because I was stealing all the money to feed
my monster. We did have some ice cream! I had just gotten high (stole my kids
change jar to do so) & I made a bowl. I went into my hole (our bedroom)
& began my dairy adventure. I nodded out face first into the ice cream
& was awaken by the opening of a door. The look of disgust is burnt into my
I was out long enough for the ice cream to have returned to
its liquid form. It was everywhere, up my nose & on my clothes/bed. I
looked at her & yelled "what did you do?!?!" Even in this moment
of glory, I was blaming someone else for what happened. It was her fault I was
blowing sprinkles out my nose, not mine.
God didn't allow me to drown in dairy that day so I
can do His work. I made a decision that day & got sober. That was over 2
& half years ago. I'm grateful everyday & a grateful heart will never
drink/drug. My life is good today & I'm allowed to eat ice cream, all by