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Why I Walk Along Side of You..
                                         by Cr Adams




Why I Walk Along Side of You.. by Cr Adams   In this world there are things that profoundly affect us emotionally. It's though others that we learn we are not alone, that there are others who have empathy.. & we begin to realize there isn't really anything wrong with us.   That we are like others & they are like us.. no one has the exact characteristics, or the exact experiences in life. Just remember there is no perfect person & no one is better than another.       We learn from things that give us both joy & pain. If we dwell on the pain.. it becomes much more than we can handle.. we become bitter & hurt.. sometimes angry.. these things come from not understanding things & beating ourselves up with shame.. from things we didn't do the way we think we should have, after the fact. Some things we do over & over till we can't deal with it anymore..       When the suffering becomes so intolerable.. we lash out or do things to ourselves that numb it.. or we do it to punish others or ourselves. When we hit the bottom.. we just give in or give up. It's not so much we hate ourselves.. or others. It's that we feel it's no use.. no one will ever care enough or understand enough. we know we are good people.. but we have no clue why life is so unfair.       Then one day we find a way out of that dungeon.. we see the steps leading out.. they are far away & it still seems hopeless, & we reach out to an unfamiliar power we thought had forgotten us.. & He/It/She hears us & brings us out. Puts others there to help & show us, we are all the same & we are loved in spite of what we've done or thought of ourselves.   I'm a very spiritual person & I believe this power to be God.. or as in my culture The Great Spirit.. He is pure unconditional love & when we are ready.. He is there for us. I believe He puts people in our lives to help us.. yes some end up hurting us or take us for granted & are selfish.. but they are there to teach us & learn from us too..        I do believe this & live my life this way.. but sometimes when others are ungrateful, I will start to wonder why I bother.. I get hurt by their uncaring selfish ways for a few moments & then I meditate & remember it's a lesson I need to revisit & be grateful for.. I'm just like everyone else.. my journey in life runs along side many others for many different reasons.. some I will never know why, but that's ok. I'm not suppose to know everything.. I'm only here to learn whats needed & help those I can..

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