I grew up in an abusive alcoholic household. I always swore I would
never become an alcoholic like my father. Famous last words......let me
tell you a bit about who i am on the inside, other than I developed a
drinking problem. Seems people tend to lose sight of that once you drink
and only define you by the drinking.
I am a mother of four children , three are adults and one is still
school age. I spent the biggest part of my life bandaging knee's, and
baking cookies for bake sales. I attended church regularly. I have been a
mother to dozens of troubled children that no one seemed to care about.
I welcomed them in my home for dinner, and just someone to talk to when
they felt alone. I have never judged anyone and always tried to help in
some small way.
Ten years ago, my husband started having affairs. It may have
started prior to then. I have since learned he is devious at what he
does. I accepted the blame, claimed the failure at being a wife. I mean ,
seriously shouldn't someone who does all the gardening, cooking,
cleaning, baking, mentoring, healing and having all the answers for
everybody else know how to keep her husband?